. . . . Words have kind of left me. My heart is so full of hurt, sadness, anger and of course, love, so much love. I fought with the rating on this, but in the end, I am a total mess, all the feels, good, bad and downright ugly and still floating around and leaving me in a bit of a funk, therefore, this deserves nothing less than 5 stars.
When I saw the teaser for this come across my blog, I was like “YES! I need this!” and somehow convinced my bestie, Ang from PNR Book Lover Reviews to buddy read with me (she will be thinking twice next time lol).
Dual POV normally aren’t my fav, it’s so easy to get lost and forget whose head you are in if it’s not written well. This was not an issue, Ruth’s writing style is incredible. You feel every little (or big) emotion these men go through.
Jason (JJ) and Dean have been best friends pretty much forever, only Jason’s feelings have always been more than just friendship, he has been secretly in love with Dean all along.
Ashamed and damaged from things from his past that has truly fucked with his head and his attraction to men, Jason tries hiding his true self and his true desires by acting like the biggest playboy going around. That’s until one night at a party Dean walks in on him and Roman (aka douchebag.)
Dean is straight, like an arrow straight and assumed Jason is just as straight as he is. Walking in on a guy giving JJ head leaves Dean confused, jealous, angry and more worrying to himself, turned on.
While these two explore their new found feelings, and boy does their exploring get hot enough to melt your kindle and leave you heading for a cold shower, they also tackle some really hard subjects and obstacles. This story takes on a Very angsty, bumpy and brutally heartbreaking real and raw road that will leave you crying, from both gut-wrenching sadness to over the moon happiness, cursing, falling in love to growling at your kindle, and that rollercoaster of feels is totally on repeat.
Without giving too much away, this story will take you on a journey that you won’t be forgetting in a hurry. Jason and Dean are both strong, courageous, real characters that show you, no, makes you feel that Love is Love is Love and love will always have your back.
* ARC PROVIDED BY THE AUTHOR FOR AN HONEST REVIEW *