Series: The Knights Rebels MC #4
Author: River Savage
Release Date: October 20th
Jesus, Joseph, and doggy-style Mary.
The tension is undeniable, the attraction
fierce. A man that wants what he wants and a woman that will fight him every
step of the way.
Until she arrives and
shines her light so bright that nothing else mattered.
She was only in it for
the chase, for the thrill of capturing the unattainable.
Can his affliction be her
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Title: Reclaimed (A Knights Rebels MC Novella 2.5)
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When the woman you love is lost, how hard will you fight to get her back?
Following the birth of her daughter, Kadence Knight finds herself in a battle she never prepared for. With desperation and unhappiness threatening to overwhelm her, a sense of hopelessness pulls her away from the one thing she has always longed for: a family.
As Nix watches his wife struggle with something he doesn’t understand, he can’t help but feel disconnected to his woman. The Kadence he once knew has drifted into the darkness. In her place is a shadow of the woman she once was, one who is fearful of the impossible…failing their daughter.
This Valentine’s Day, Nix has one goal — to reclaim the woman who gave him everything.
*Please note this is a novella and features the characters from the previous storyline.
The events of Reclaimed take place after Incandescent and Affliction. Book one and two in the Knights Rebels MC.
To get the full advantage of the story, and character development, I strongly suggest you read in order.
“I don’t know what you want from me,” I whisper. Communication was never this hard. The distance growing further between us as each day passes makes me afraid that this is what we’ve become.
“I just want to bring you happiness, baby,” he sighs, but before I can tell him I don’t think he can, Harlow’s cries come through the monitor. I move off the bed to go to her, knowing she will need to be fed.
“You walk out of this room, Kadence, you walk out on me.” His cold tone stops me from moving any further. It’s the same tone he used in the bathroom. “Leave her,” he commands, but the thought of continuing this conversation, where we tear each other down, has me fighting him.
“Nix, I have to check on her.” I continue to the door.
“Don’t you dare leave this fuckin’ room. I’m important too. I’m your fuckin’ husband. Do you hear me? We are important.” His hand sweeps across his nightstand, causing one big crash that sends everything tumbling to the floor. I’m frozen in place, my hand resting on the door handle. The room is silent. The shock of what has gone on tonight so raw I don’t think either of us knows how to process it.
“I don’t know what you want from me,” I repeat, closing my eyes when Harlow’s cries grow louder, sending my anxiety rising. Doesn’t he know he’s only making it worse?
“Jesus, I don’t know. Give me a look, smile at me…fuckin’ touch me. Give me a connection that says we’re on the same fuckin’ side. I can’t continue to stay in this place we are in. I’m drowning here, Kadence. We both are, and I just don’t know if I can keep treading water for both of us. You have to help me, baby. You have to want us to survive.” He falls to the bed, his head dropping to his hands. Seeing him like this, in this state makes me realize that our situation is bigger than me, than him. It’s bigger than either one of us realize.
“That’s not fair.” I release the handle and turn, collapsing against the wall. The wind knocks out of me as his words resonate within me. We are drowning and I have to stop fighting. At this realization, my knees become weak. Standing becomes too hard. I slide down the wall, dropping my ass to the carpet.
“Life isn’t fair, Kadence. I wish it was, but it just isn’t. Look where we both have come from; look where life has taken us. We won’t survive if you won’t talk to me, Kadence. Talk to someone.” He stands to come to me, but having him in my space only makes things worse.
“Please don’t.” I draw in a breath, defeated. His frustration and concerns only prove what a bad mother I’ve been, what a bad wife I’ve become.
“Don’t what, Kadence? Don’t make me walk away. I want my wife back. I don’t know what’s happened, but I don’t like who you’ve become.” His voice is pained, as broken as my soul feels. His confession doesn’t surprise me, but it still burns. I know I don’t like who I’ve become. How do I expect Nix to like me?
“You don’t think I ask myself that question every day? That I don’t look at myself and ask what is wrong with me? I don’t know who I’ve become, Nix. All I know is I should. I should know who I am.” My head thuds against the wall in defeat. I can’t keep going on like this. I can hear Harlow’s cries quietening, as she resettles herself, but that doesn’t stop me from wanting out of this room.
“I know who you are, Kadence. You’re the woman I love. The most amazin’ mother to our daughter, our son.” Saying Z is my son pulls at me harder. The fact that he, too, is affected by what is happening hurts even more. Nix walks over and squats to my level, careful not to get into my space, but close enough for me to reach out and touch him if I wanted to.
“Why don’t I know that? I should know that Nix.”
“You don’t have to know. I know, the kids know and that’s enough.”
“It’s not enough for me.” My hand itches to touch him, to feel his hardness under my fingers, but sitting broken on the floor of our bedroom, I know I can’t. I can’t touch the man who means everything to me and I hate myself for it.
“When did you stop trustin’ yourself?”
“I don’t know. When did I stop being myself?” I counter, and my admission halts him for a moment. He crawls forward, coming closer into my space. His warmth, his calming presence wraps itself all over me.
“The first step is askin’ for help, baby. Let me help you. You don’t have to be alone. Let me learn to breathe the ugliness you see. Let me share the darkness, Kadence. Just don’t push me away.” His pleading pulls at me, pulls at the hatred that has settled inside.
“I’m not doing good, Nix,” I say, looking up and giving him what he needs. What I need. “Somewhere along the way, I woke completely lost and overwhelmed. And every day, it gets harder and harder to deal.” A sob tears from deep within me, and walls I’ve been hiding behind crumble down.
“I know, baby.” He pulls me into the hardness of his chest. “We’re gonna be okay,” he promises, and everything in me wants to believe him. Everything in me wants to trust he has me. That he has us. But the truth is, I’ve drowned in so much self-doubt and uneasiness, that trust seems so far away.
Series Reading Order
(Knights Rebels MC #1)
Phoenix ‘Nix’ Knight thought pulling his club out of the illegal shit his Pops got them into was difficult.
Until he meets Kadence.
Kadence Turner has no business lusting over a student’s father, especially the president of the Knights Rebels MC. Nix is crass, obnoxious and dangerously sexy and for some reason, Kadence can’t seem to hate him for it. The bossy biker breaks down her defenses, but unlike the old Kadence, the woman she is today won’t give in without a fight.
The tension is undeniable, the attraction fierce. A man that wants what he wants and a woman that will fight him every step of the way.
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(Knights Rebels MC #2)
Three little words are all it takes to rip his world apart. Lost in his own affliction, Sy has been living in a darkness that he doesn’t ever want to let go of.
Until she arrives and shines her light so bright that nothing else mattered.
She was only in it for the chase, for the thrill of capturing the unattainable.
But what happens when her world shatters around her, spiraling her into the darkness beside him?
Can his affliction be her resurrection?
Or will two lost souls living in the depths of deception let it destroy them?
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About the Author
River Savage is the author of the Knights Rebels MC Series.
An avid reader of romance and erotic novels, her love for books and reading fueled her passion for writing. Reading no longer sated her addiction, so she started writing in secret. She never imagined that her dream of publishing a novel would ever be achievable.
With a soft spot for an alpha male and a snarky sassy woman, Kadence and Nix were born.
It’s something we all know exists, but it’s not something that is often spoken about in the books we read. Come to think of it, I’ve not read a single book (or novella) that has postpartum depression as the main focus. I guess a lot of authors don’t want to create that kind of shit-storm in their stories.
I for one am glad it was River that wrote this story. She is an author who doesn’t shy away from the ugliness that life throws at us all; instead, she drags us through hell and then shows us that there really is happiness on the other side. Seriously this woman can write anything and it will be a 5 star #OneClick read.
In Incandescence, we fall in love with Nix for this dirty mouth, his fierce love for his woman and of course, all that hot alpha-ness that just drips from him. Kadence and her sassy mouth, no shit-taking attitude had me with a serious girl crush. In Reclaimed, we see a different side to these two.
Kadence is a newly married woman to The Nix Knight and a mother to Z and new baby, Harlow.She should be on top of the world, right? Wrong.
Kadence isn’t bonding with Low and she doesn’t understand why. Motherhood has dragged her into the dark depths of depression where not only does she fear she’s failing as a mother and wife, but that perhaps this was a mistake.
She doesn’t want to be with her daughter more than absolutely necessary, and the thought of having to be alone with Low spikes a fear so powerful, it practically leaps off the page. being When Nix forces her to look after Low on her own in a last attempt to try and bring her back, her anxiety hits rock bottom.
All too often the fathers struggles are forgotten when a mother goes through postpartum depression. Thankfully, River shows just how hard it is on the husbands too. How much of a strain it places on the marriage, and how Love isn’t a fight, but something worth fighting for.
Nix loves his family fiercely. His loyalty and devotion to Kadence shines through like a beacon in this dark time.
He is falling apart. He feels like he has failed his family, failed his wife. Kadence may be there in body, but he has lost the woman he fell in love, her fire and sass has been put out and he has no idea how to get her back.She isn’t the only one lost thought.
Nix has lost part of himself over the last few months while he has been treading water, keeping them both a float.
Nix will stop at nothing to bring her back to him, to bring them both back.
In true River style, you can expect things to heat up and leave you hot and bothered. This novella may have a lot of pain and self discovery, but as always, you are left laughing your ass off and begging for more.
Let’s not forget, this is a Knights Rebels novella, meaning we get a little fix of Sy, Holly, Jesse, Beau and Brooks.
There is always a light at the end, even if it is in the form of an alpha biker with something small and blue 😉